One of the most amazing realizations you can have is to realize your oneness are actively avoiding this moment. That at the very core of your ego is that constant reflex to separate oneself from this moment, to constantly seek some sort of mental distraction that takes you out of feeling this moment directly.

This repulsion is not happening atan intellectual level. It is happening unconsciously.

The ego refuses to allow attention to remain in this moment, to feel this moment. Because if you fully allow yourself to feel this moment beyond the perception of thought, then the the ego, this separate sense of “me” that wants to control this moment disappears.

You realize your oneness with this moment.That what you are and what is here cannot be separated. If you can recognize this constant urge to separate yourself from this moment, that by identifying with thinking you are separating yourself from feeling what is here, then automatically that separation begins to relax.

You begin to learn to be present in this moment, and feel what is here beyond thought. You do not need to hold on to this moment, for this moment is already here. You simply need to be conscious of and let go of this urge to escape this moment.

You surrender that urge, you surrender that contraction, you surrender your involvement with thinking. You let go of everything that can be let go of and automatically this moment is left. And then you really learn to feel it, to feel life happening in this moment, to allow it to flow through you unhindered like wind moving through air.

You can’t do it by turning this into a teaching, by turning it into knowledge, you can only do it by honestly recognizing
that urge to escape this moment and surrendering that urge.